[Serenity]

Ok lately i don't know WTF i have been doing.. I had it perfect. College paid for by grants. on my way to going to Pharmacogenomics school after my undergrad was completed. But i pretty much don't even go to class anymore and im failing every single one of my classes and know b/c of that i don't even know if i can re apply for my grants for a year and my grades are to shitty to even get accepted to a Pharmacgenomics school or even Pharmacology school.. I just really don't know WTF I'm doing.. I sit here and preach to my self go to bed at this time wake up go to class. or wake up work out then do this...and i belive i can do it.. But how do you get your self in the habit of doing these things.. Cause if i can't i just see my self going down the wrong path.. I find myself partying ALOT more then what i have been.. And that's all i really even look forward to. Don't even care about school or what's gonna happen 5 years from now.. I mean i think about it.. But really don't care.. idk..

I guess pretty much what ineed to do is just grow the F**K up..

/end rant